So this past Thursday I was given the prescription for testosterone. I took my first shot and I didn’t expect to feel any immediate changes. I haven’t really but I noticed I feel calmer. Like as time has passed I have felt unusually chill. The other thing is yesterday and today my voice sounds off. It isn’t a difference that is extremely noticeable. People would maybe think I had a cold. I keep saying well maybe you are imagining it you know a sort of “Placebo” effect. I am not imagining the oily skin though. I also noticed a increase in my sex drive in the past 3 days which is aggravating. Is it normal?
So I been going to a therapist for a while now. Monday I have an appointment with the family physician. I hope I can get him to refer me to an endo and a new neuro. I also purchased a new chest binder. It isn’t made for trans guys but I have already tried ones that are and maybe this one will work better. It is for a condition called gynecomastia (man boobs). I really hope this works.
I cut my hair all off and gave my female clothing to my little sister. This was back in October and I told my little sister. I am not the sister you thought you had. Remember you said once you always wanted a big brother. To be honest I always wanted to be that big brother. I hugged my sister, she is precious in my eyes. I told her that I preferred to be called Damien. She managed to call me Damie occasionally. Like everyone else that fell through and she calls me by my birth name.
It gets irritating. I love the man I am with but even he doesn’t understand. He’s in the Army so I doubt I could pursue a sex change even if I didn’t get the SRS operation.
I don’t know I just need to get these emotions out thanks.
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