Invisible

By Damien Knight
When you struggle And your eyes

won’t stay open but you must 

because if you don’t 

You are lazy, and worthless

Being sick, how they accuse
You look fine to me.

My illness is a haunting

A spectre, has me imprisoned 

In my “sound” body

Their judging eyes decieve them 

They don’t see my medicine 

Or know how long since I was 

able to take them

I sleep exhausted by life

A voice mocking my weakness

But I wont cave in.

This is what living is like

With invisible illness

And I am stronger!

 

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Climbing The Mountain

By Damien Knight

I spent years fighting the inner demons. Everyone fights their shadows, eventually I embraced mine. In the end, I had no choice. I could hate who I had become or forgive myself. I forgave. What was I guilty of? Being myself, certainly not.

Forgive yourself, it is an important step to take, forgive yourself and you take off the weight you carry. The burden that prevents you from climbing Everest is lifted. My demons were my self-image, I would scrape at my face in tears. My burden was my dysphoria and like an elephant on my back I tried to climb with this on me. I tried to lie to myself about my happiness. I was a poor liar, and such burdens make success impossible.

We can do anything we set our minds too. I know I can be a better man a stronger man. I know I won’t have to struggle with the suffering of my youth and I do not look back into the shadow of my past. Forgive yourself, that is the first step. Be true to your being is the second, and the third is make your dreams possible. Believe and act. And that is what I am doing. I believe I can do this. I can raise money for surgery, I will have the family farm, and we will keep traveling.

Keep believing, forgive, and be true. Without that first step you cannot climb the mountain.

You can help me take steps in my transition Journey here: The Shadow’s Journey