Diary Entry Writing Prompt 10 Years Later

Oct 7 2028

Dear Journal,

I’ve reached 42 and it’s October I love October. I admit I did not know if I’d make it this far. Finally got top surgery and my B.S. in Geology. Masters degree was hard earned too.

I will be working on my doctrates soon. I took a break because I was in school my kids entire lives. My son is turning 23 soon. My daughter is 19. I can start my studies along side them, I am still young after all.

– Damien Knight

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My Favourite Work Of Art

By Damien Knight

My favourite work of art is Starry Night by Vincent Van Gogh. I have loved Van Gogh’s art since 3rd grade when Ms. Denny read a story on his life. I felt I could personally connect with his traumatic life.
I love the dark blue colours of this painting streaked with bright stars swirling the sky. Those swirling stars are like wind swept lights of hope through the dark blue of my depression. I feel hope when I see this painting.

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Van Gogh’s Starry Night

The Shadow Self an Update

By Damien Knight

Back in 2010 I wrote a blog about my journey for a spiritual name. At the time I followed an Egyptian Pagan practice. I am still a Kemetic Pagan though I am now more of a solitary practitioner. Part of my faith is the selection of a spiritual name that would be my “magickal” name. At the time I picked Scaledshadow to honour both my faith in dragons and my fight with the concept of shadow self.

The shadow self is a spiritual belief that we have two versions of ourselves. One version is who we are based on hereditary traits and conditioning by society. It is the face we wear in public, who everyone thinks we are.

The other us is what the “shadow self” is. This self is the one we deny and suppress. The “shadow” carries all our dark desires, the things we view as sin. These can be true psychopathic thoughts or things society has told us to deny. Lust, Greed, and the other 7 deadly sins are things our shadow self might hold as values. My shadow self held something central to my identity as a value: Masculinity.

I took myself to task to find my spiritual name without realisation that I had my name long before that journey. That journey I took ScaledShadow from wolf as he slept. If I had listened to my own dreams, I would have known I was Koraki. It’s cliché to have the name Raven in pagan circles. For me though the Raven is an archetype that fits. He is the light giver and trickster in various folk traditions. He also goes through a transformation.

I will write the story I once read about the raven later for this blog. Koraki is my shadow self the darker aspects society locked away. The desire for masculinity, the hunger that burns and I see him in my dreams fighting to be acknowledged. He tells me I am stronger than I think I am. I am a fighter, a king and that I can still be a man.

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Journal 2: Literacy Narrative Free Write

By Damien Knight Written 2006/ revised

Mother Goose
Baby Sitter’s Club
Daycare: Learning to write my name.
The Bible
Church
Fourth-Grade Book Report

I think it was my step-mom who first taught me to love reading. She would give me Mother Goose books and I would read those. She also kept Baby Sitter’s Club books on her shelves. I loved reading the letters at the start of the chapters. My step-mom was also the daycare lady, we used to use shaving cream to write our names and draw in.

When I was in the 1st grade I had a sub named Ms. Fisher. She ended up taking over for our teacher, a whole year. The original teacher had a kid. I warned Ms. Fisher I bite teachers I don’t like. She was patient and kind and turned out great.

From the time I was in 1st until 3rd my dad would read from my blue Bible every night. He would read Psalms at my request. My parents encouraged reading and writing. My teachers also encouraged reading. Mrs. Denny would read Roald Dahl and Ramona Quimby age 8 books to the class. Ms. Hutchinson my fourth-grade teacher assigned book reports. I did Nancy Drew. I grew up loving to read and write.

Another Eng 101 writing assignment. The list above was that “prewriting” our TA was trying to get us to do. Ok I was 20 and a bit of an arse but I felt our TA was dumb and I still feel that way.

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My Strengths and Weaknesses in Writing

Eng 101

2006

Written by Damien Knight

My strengths, I have a broad vocabulary. I come up with ideas quickly. I can’t prewrite. Prewriting has always been difficult. I can write ideas in sentences but not lists. I tend to write things out. Lists seem useless.

I really hated the class that made me do these assignments. Who thought it was a good idea to have a TA that hated writing teach writing 101.

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Vegas Trip: Diary Entry One

Damien Knight
Mar, 9 2018

We boarded the plane at 10:55 am. I don’t know when we hit the runway but it’s around 11:26 now. We got in the air, I am lucky I flew priority. I admit I am a bit anxious, but I noticed Logan is also on this flight. So at least I am not by myself really.

I brought all my notes I took in class, even the paper I wrote on faults. I am ready.

My ears just popped which hurt. The Flight is 3 hours. The clouds outside are gorgeous. Passed by the river, it looked lovely. I ordered a coke. Frontier charges for drinks, cost me 3 dollars.

I am exhausted but can’t sleep. I woke at 4:30 am and said bye to my family at 9:30. I gave my daughter the rest of my coffee before leaving. Good luck, Aaron. Being transgender, I was worried about the TSA screening. My binder was marked as an anomaly but my packer was ignored.

I am excited to get there and look at the rocks! I dressed like my childhood inspiration, Dr. Allen Grant, from Jurassic Park. I look silly. Still, I am happy. I will have a good hat to keep the sun off me. I better make this my last soda, really should only drink water in the desert.

I played Mah-jong for a bit. I really am tired, still can’t sleep. Aaron told me he flew first class in to Kentucky. That’s cool. We should be landing soon.

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Flying over Mountains in New Mexico