So I went to the doctor today. They are getting referrals to a Neuro and an Endo. I am so nervous. I don’t know what to expect at all. I have been waiting so long to start hormones and I am so close I can taste it. I just wish I knew more FTM people who could tell me what to expect.
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So I been going to a therapist for a while now. Monday I have an appointment with the family physician. I hope I can get him to refer me to an endo and a new neuro. I also purchased a new chest binder. It isn’t made for trans guys but I have already tried ones that are and maybe this one will work better. It is for a condition called gynecomastia (man boobs). I really hope this works.
By Damien Knight
OK, in a week I learn what my blood results are. Since the doctor wants me on the EFMP (Exeptional Family Member Program) I know that somethings up. Most likely this is for my past diagnosis of Bipolar. A diagnoses I am now trying to contest and get a re-diagnosis. I have to get an MRI for twitching and fainting spells which is why my friends I keep leaving the bar on Tuesday early. My worst twitching episodes happen at about 10:00 Pm and it is embarrassing for me to have others see me smacking myself. Anyway I get that done Friday and Wednesday I go see a doctor for an evaluation of my blood results. I need to talk to the doctor about this damn black spot that appeared on my eye. I have been having these problems for months (the twitching migraines and fainting problem) it took Aaron dragging me to the doctor to do something about it. My own concerns had been so focused on my personal displeasure at being born in a female body that the health of said body really didn’t matter.
So I had a conversation with Aaron last night. I asked him if it was normal to see what I could only describe as television static in front of everything one sees. He told me no.
So for my friends I ask is this normal? I know the silver static that blocks out my entire vision is not normal but my vision is always blocked with light static in front. I wonder is it normal?
Today: So this was before they diagnosed me with hypothyroidism and epilepsy. The lump I spoke of on my eye in this prior journal turned out to be a blood tumor and I just had surgery on it after two years of ignoring it.