Wednesday Wisedom: YOLO


By Damien Knight

To find peace in ash, I cannot sway in the wind, life is but one death.



Life is so complicated isn’t it? It can rush us by surprise like a mass eruption of things to do. These volcanos of expectations and ruined plans they come as if without warning. We ignore the tremors that warn us the eruption is pending and even as the ashes spew we oft turn away in denial. What do you fear? I wrote the poetic line above myself intent to turn it into a full poem, but it is a truth for me.

What do I fear? Why run from the ashes, the pyroclastic flows of doubt and expectations? No, we can face it by not allowing fear to sway us, remain fluid like the flowing molten rock, but steady like an unbowing mountain. It is now cliché but as the kids were fond of saying YOLO!

YOLO! Go climb that mountain! YOLO! Go read all those books! YOLO! Go take that crazy Pilates class! And YOLO stop eating tide pods ‘K or you won’t be living at all. We have but this one life and after it only one death. Leave no regrets!



By Damien Knight
She was my heart

I was her fire

Oceans a part

Close in mind

Passions burn

Dancing torch

I still yearn

For her voice

Alas we seperated

Through the viel

My life dedicated

To her memory

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Jan 19, 1986

My name is Damien Knight. I am a 32-year-old female to male trans-person. Today is my birthday. I have lived as male since 2009. I was on testosterone for 3 years and desperately want to get back on it. I also desire one other thing, top surgery.

I have lived 32 years in a body that causes me discomfort, anxiety and depression. The dysphoria once was so bad I attempted suicide. Today I no longer try to die but I think if I had surgery I would be less depressed. This year I hope to raise 1000 toward my goal. Please, for my birthday I ask that people donate toward my surgery fund. Thank You.

The Go Fund Me for my surgery The Shadow’s Journey :

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School Started Last Week

Written by Damien Knight
on 6/14/12
So last week the summer semester started. I had taken spring semester as a break from classes, so I was a bit rusty. So much so I forgot the semester started last week and not this week. Oops, my bad. Anyway, been catching up as much as I can. Philosophy class is awesome but Spanish sucks big time.

Why does Spanish suck? Well, it’s just not challenging enough. I am a week late, yet I did a whole week of class work in one day. I mean really it shouldn’t be so easy. I been told to just go with it.

I can’t wait till fall classes. I will take classes concerning my major in the fall. I am a Biology Major at a community college. I absolutely love doing biology but to be honest I can’t wait till I graduate and move to a university that way I can do what I love: Geology.

I have always wanted to be a Palaeontologist and I am hoping a Geology Major with a Biology Minor will get me closer.

Anyway, I hope to write many awesome things in this blog about various topics for now.

Update Note: I wrote this in a blog I originally had on blogger. It was called Into the Shadow’s View. I forgot I even had a Blogger. It now is a new extension of this blog called “The Shade of Writing on Blogger”. I doubt I will post stuff there often but it makes it easier I think for me to comment on blogs ran on Blogger.

As for this post I am now at University studying Geology. I ended up dropping my minor. It was better just to focus on my major. With that I would like to remind everyone that this semester I have a research trip to the Mojave. If you wish to help fund that please click the donate button for it below. Thanks.

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This is to donate to the Mojave Study Away Fund


Youtube’s Policy

Damien Knight

Guys YouTube once more changed it’s YouTube policy for monetization. As someone who has been on YouTube since the birth of my daughter, I am highly upset. I remember YouTube when it was a brand new place and nothing was monetized. It was completely free. It seems that greed has taken over the platform. This morning Channels received this email.

I was approved for YouTube partnership in 2011, I remember how excited I was. I had vlogged daily back then, I wasn’t doing it to make money. I began vlogs and blogs back then to record my kids growing for my spouse so he could see them. His job keeps him from being home and I wanted that he not miss a moment on his newborn daughter. I never made much money. I think I have to date earned 2 dollars on YouTube.

For me I am not upset because I can’t make money on youtube. I am upset that the opportunity that Logan Paul and Pewdie Pie abused is now being stripped from innocent vloggers and creators. Why should they be punished for other people’s B.S.?

I know a few other YouTubers are now leaving the platform but for me I haven’t given up yet. I want to think that YouTube will realize what a bad decision this is and maybe change the system again. That said if they keep making it harder on new channels and creators I may just move The Shadow’s Lair’s videos.

In the meantime while we still are posting videos would you all go and subscribe? We highly appreciate it.

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Motivational Monday: Dr. Martin Luther King

By Damien Knight


Today we remember Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. While I could write about what he means to people today but his words stand on their own.

“I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia, the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.”

― Martin Luther King Jr.I Have a Dream: Writings and Speeches That Changed the World

With today’s news and increased visibility of racial tensions let us not forget Dr. Martin Luther King Jr’s dream. After all :  “Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”
― Martin Luther King Jr.I Have a Dream: Writings and Speeches That Changed the World

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