Haunted by Her

The lady of shadows haunts me
And my heart feels lost at sea
Alone I am an empty king
But you stand here reminding me
Of promises I made to write
To pour my soul on page
So tired I spend all my time
Studying ever so late
And when the days fade to night
If I sleep will I again wake
I tire of the glaring lights
Aniya left me to my fate
And I hold everything said
Between us always in memory
Lest I be once more dead
And heart set free

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“Growing Up Aspie”- A Comic By Nathan McConnell

I first discovered “Growing Up Aspie” in an autistic community group during the same time I had that unfortunate conversation with a well known Autism “advocacy” blog. I loved the post the group member shared, it reflected me, but I could not in good consciousness share it I said because of my aversion to “Aspie/Asperger.”


Ah yes, I too often start to speak and lose entire sentences. WHY BRAIN! Image Description Comic Titled “This is your brain on what?” Main character Nathan, Speech bubble next to Nathan who is wearing a green shirt and grey hat “So he hired an..” A brain floats above him with a white box that reads “So he hired an attorney.” A white ghost like person stand next to Nathan waiting. Next panel inside the Brain’s white box in red letters “So he hired an…” Nathan’s speech bubble has three dots. Third panel Brain’s box says LOL!#% Nathan looks at his brain and his speech bubble reads “I mean… Seriously?” The allistic ghost person has his hands up looking surprised.

The artist, Nathan, is a king of grace and understanding. When we spoke he was polite and aware and his art is just fantastic. He explained his position to me without feeling insulted that I was concerned with the use of “aspie.” It is, as an artist, a blogger and a fellow autistic community voice a position I could understand.

I cannot find screens of that original conversation but I had told the person who shared his comic that I did not feel comfortable sharing anything dealing with Asperger in it’s name. The person understood and cropped the name out for me. This was when Nathan replied and explained how he was aware that the community was distancing itself from Asperger but that for him right now he could not change the name. He told me of the financial aspects and how he was diagnosed prior to the DSM V. He is autistic. Does not like functioning labels, and is aware that Aspie is such and the problem with Asperger. When you get told over and over this is who you are, I understand changing is hard but he has been making that change.

For many of us Aspie supremacy is very important. I have noticed debate over it is once more circling around the community again. First with Greta and her use and also with a certain E-zine/blog and it’s name.  For Nathan, he literally grew up aspie, but doesn’t call himself aspie, all his comics say autistic. He says better his case than I can:

Why “Aspie” -From “Growing up Aspie” Facebook Page

His art and voice relates so well to myself. I can proudly endorse his art and hope those following take time to visit his page and support his Patreon.

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Don’t Get It

I don’t get it
I don’t know how to get through to you
And I don’t get why people act the way they do
Babe, I don’t get it
No I can’t figure people out at all
Like how do I make a simple phone call?
I don’t get it, I feel lost inside
Why do people say I hide
Ask if I’m angry or depressed
When I neither smiled nor frowned
Why do people put me down?
Like I don’t get why people lie
Or why I can’t be who I am inside
Why am I expected to be like you?
Babe what am I suppose to do?
I just don’t get it
Why I gotta look you in the eye
When I said it hurts a thousand times
Come on now don’t touch me please
I just want to be left as me
But I think you don’t get it
Yeah you don’t get that this is me
And while I’m trying hard you see
I shouldn’t have to change
Just because you feel I don’t fit in
You don’t get it, That I get!
You JUST don’t get it!

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Look for me in the wind
Stare out into the vast abyss
The breeze is my friend
I’ll be the man that you miss

Like the raging storms before me
And that calm you feel when I’m gone
It all leaves you uneasy, lonely
I knew, we’d grow this way all along

But my heart still yearns and I offer
The safety of my habour to you
Come dock here when your heart is unsure
And I my beloved remain yours true.

Science and Technology USGS Seminar Summary

By Damien Knight

Pete Cinotto came to campus November second to talk about science and technology from the USGS Water Science Center’s perspective. He talked about his early career and study first and how he joined the USGS. Pete then focused on how USGS operates. He says that everything is changing rapidly and starts his talk with the slide “Science for a Changing World.” We live and work in a rapid changing world. Science must change with it.

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