Motivational Monday: The Candle in the Darkness

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-Damien

Some months back a big YouTube family lost two of their children in highly publicized CPS custody battle. I won’t name the family, I am sure we all know who I am talking about and their heinousness does not deserve more air time. Just know they were a “Prank Channel” where the pranks were them screaming obscenities at the youngest step child until he cried. He literally was the red headed step-child.

Why am I bringing this up on a motivational Monday? Good question you see during all that I had avoided seeing the “prank videos” and blocked out the story because it was very similar to stuff I suffered. Having my step sisters favoured over me, constantly being called dumb blond or some other insult, having my favourite toys literally thrown away or broken in front of me, and having my parents encourage my step sister to beat me up. While I know they might read this and deny they hurt me I know my past. I know my darkness. I saw those videos today.

It wasn’t intentional, a friend, one who was well meaning, shared it and Facebook auto played it when I scrolled. The flashback happened immediately, I was a scared teenager all over, I was that boy in the video being accused when I hadn’t done a thing wrong. I curled up in a corner and was bawling. Even now it’s hard to not have tears in my eyes. This is not how you treat a child you love.

The candle, the candle to my past is right there in front of me. As I cried my son heard me and came. His arms wrapped around me, I told him how much I loved him and how sorry I was for yelling at him so much. He and his sister just sat their in my arms like babes. Light a candle, forgive.

I do forgive my family, we have grown past so much. I will always struggle with PTSD but I can’t curse the darkness. I know that while I had a difficult childhood I am not the only one who has. My own parents both grew up in tough childhoods. I don’t know much about their lives but I know it was no cake walk and abuse is often a pattern one I hope to keep on breaking.

Happy Monday and stay Motivated!

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4 comments on “Motivational Monday: The Candle in the Darkness

  1. Roger says:

    What a great article I truly feel motivated thank you so much

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  2. This was a wonderful read and so very interesting. Thank you for sharing that story! You have motivated me and that’s a wonderful gift.

    Kimberly Love
    Author of Upcoming book, You Taste Like Whiskey and Sunshine,
    http://www.kimmilove.com, http://www.instagram.com/kimmiloveauthor, http://www.facebook.com/kimmilovetheauthor, http://www.twitter.com/kimmiloveauthor

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  3. This is lovely. I hope abuse will just end. It makes me sad just thinking about it. 😭

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  4. You have the power to break the cycle. Keep strong.

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