written in 2003
I want you to know I believe in you. I believe that you can do whatever you set your mind to. I know that right now the future looks bleak, uncertain, even so you will make it. I know you will, because you are a survivor.
You must always remember to have hope. Don’t ever lose faith or give up hope. You will beat the odds my child. I know you like the back of my hand. You are intelligent, athletic and very strong willed. Yet you are still a hurting babe.
Life must seem like Mount Everest, impossible. This is not so! It is possible for you, that is why this life was given to you and you alone. No other can live your life like you can. No one else can dream your dreams and fulfill them. Only you can my dear child.
You are at the edge of childhood and adulthood. Go ahead, step over, I am with you all the way. It is time to let go of the four year old victim and play the true part you were meant to play. Show them you can make it because you want to make it.
Which brings me to something you said that has bothered me. You have said you want to succeed to prove everyone else wrong. I do not like that attitude toward life and you know that. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad you want to achieve your goals, but you must do it for your own benefit. Understand? Good, now that that’s clear I am relieved.
Child, I have so much I want to tell you. I think you know what I am about to say. Earth is a ship carrying its crew. You are one of the crew. Be independent but remember no man is an island so work with those around you.
You are on a mountain, your climb has been rough but that was just the beginning. You’re not even halfway up but don’t lose hope. You’ll get there and when you do you will feel so proud.
Love, this is another issue we must discuss. Bet you thought I was finished. O, no not nearly even. Remember my dear child that love is patient and slow to anger. Do not depend on others love until you can love yourself. Do not marry until you a sure you love them. Keep an eye open for red flags in your relationships. You know what they are.
Believe in yourself, I believe in you and so do others. So many want to help, let them. Trust people to a certain degree. Don’t over exert yourself trying to be something you’re not. I like you for you. You must learn to do the same.
Keep your chin up. Even when you’re down you must have hope that life will change its course. Life is a river, it forever flows forward even after death. Life is in your spirit. Don’t let your spirit grow bitter with hate. In time you will see that I am right. Until then learn by your mistakes. Make them I encourage it, but don’t play dare devil, don’t put your life at risk.
Last but not least treat people with respect. It isn’t only about you in this world.